Archive for March, 2006

THE END

Thursday, March 16th, 2006

remember when i say i am trying to find the right time to actually leave this blog? suddenly this exact time, i think to myself… screw that! i’m doing it now. i’m not going to write in here anymore. i am moving away. lantaklah… malas nak tunggu tunggu dah…

initially i think i’d wait till the first year anniversary on the 7th of april but naah… don’t think so. heh… i can’t even wait for another 3 weeks…

by the way, i’m having a new space elsewhere not to annoy people receiving so many updates due to my nature to spend time writing… i’ve told some peeps about it but for others interested, let me know… if not you can still see the updated version of my life in pictures, if my camera is put onto good use that is… and possibly so the link to my new space there…

so, sayonara… the end is never really the end.
and please forgive me if i ever hurt you. 

erk…

Tuesday, March 14th, 2006

Cimg0540_3first time having a letter addressing me like this… and as much as i felt excited at first, i am SEVERELY terrified now. *gulp* no kidding!!

random questionnaire…

Sunday, March 12th, 2006

1. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
i’ve had comments like ‘heartless’ and ’secretive’ from someone close to me at one point… so, yeah… i think i can hide my feelings.

2.How can we tell that you’re already irritated?
that depends, when i’m irritable little things can make me talk non-stop and complaint but at other times i’ll remain in solitude and get away from the stimulus. sometimes my mind just disconnect and i’m miles away.

3. How do you treat the person that obviously doesn’t like you?
if i have time and i have the strength i’d want to know why and improve myself… but if not, i’ll try to be a good person as best as i can and try not to bump into them, so not to make matter worse.

4. What usually ruins your mood?
dehydrated and constipation? haha…

5. Who do you see everyday that you wish you just wouldn’t at all?
hmm… don’t think so

6. When was the last time that you had a good cry?
cannot remember…

7. How often do you shop for clothes?
hehe… when i feel like having one…

8. Who’s your long-time crush?
hmm… not so sure… does king mufasa of lion king counts?

9. Someone you just had a crush on?
hmm… not really in the mood to have a crush but the rock singer in american idols impressed me with his voice… is it a crush?

10. Do you have something that you wish you just don’t?
heh… there are some stuffs waiting to be given away…

11. Do you sometimes crave for something that isn’t there?
of course… especially food

12. Do you wish to live in a faraway land where nobody knows you?
sometimes although technically i AM living in a foreign country…

13. Have you kissed a total stranger?
nope

14. What do you want to do at this very moment?
really really want and need to study but…

15. The worst feeling?
deceited, hurt, emptiness

16. How about the best?
that warm feeling that makes me smile effortlessly

17. Ever give your number to someone you dislike?
maybe

18.What will you say to the one reading this right now?
enjoy!!

19. What/Who do you need right now?
forgiveness and blessings, family and friends, motivating factors and concentration

20. Happy with your life?
to be honest, i’m not entirely sure…

will be gone soon…

Saturday, March 11th, 2006

hmm… after writing here for a while, i am going to leave this blog in a matter of time. i’ve been contemplating the move and i think the time is near. i am just waiting for the perfect time… just like the song,

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waktu yang tepat untuk berpisah

by sheila on 7

dan bila kau harus pergi
pergi dan takkan kembali
ku akan merelakanmu asal kau bahagia
selamanya di sana walau tanpaku

ku akan mengerti cinta
dengan apa yang terjadi
pastikan saja langkahmu
tetap bererti

bisakah aku tanpamu… sanggupkah aku tanpamu…

*sehangat pelukan hujan
saat kau lambaikan tangan
tenang wajahmu berbisik
inilah waktu yang tepat ‘tuk berpisah

selembut belaian badai
saat kau palingkan arah
jejak langkahmu terbaca
inilah waktu yang tepat ‘tuk berpisah

ku akan fahami cinta
dengan apa yang terjadi
pastikan saja mimpimu
tetap bererti

*aku tak pernah mengharap kau ‘tuk kembali
saat kau temukan duniamu
aku tak pernah menunggumu ‘tuk kembali
saat bahagia mahkotamu, saat kedamaian selimutmu
jangan kau kembali…

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hehe… not that dramatic lah tapinyamacam bercinta dengan blog la pulak… ahaha…

i think there will be a few more entries till the time comes, we’ll see about that. initially i intended not to get attached with this blog but i guess this blog has grow on me. a lot has happened. a lot has been put in. i’ve enjoyed it except for the fact that some people might be annoyed receiving the updates, thus inhibiting my urge to write at times, plus the need to sign in before making comments etc and no tagboard… hehe… you know what i mean right?

alas… i might actually start a new blog somewhere else. hehe. you can try to find it yourself if you are interested in reading what i have to say… or ask me… or actually… maybe i’ll just go anonymus in blogging world. or just stop blogging altogether. we’ll have to see about that as well.

anyway, just thought i let you know before the time comes…

carricature & petrol

Wednesday, March 8th, 2006

these are not-quite-new issues but they are neither old issues to be left unnoticed. people are still outraged and angry over these issues but i think everything will die soon enough. as usual.

i found this interesting article discussing about both issues. about why we are so outraged as muslim and as malaysian with regards to this. but it rightly pointed out that by demonstrating and shouting alone, these issues will never resolve would they? by the end of the day, they would march back to their home and resume life the next morning. yeah, the government may took notice of the demonstration but really, will anything change?

similar with the demostration and all the anger, shouting and threats made by the muslim when our beloved prophet being carricatured as terrorist. by now, everything seems to die away and everyone resume to their daily routine. it has left a scar, a bleed. but then again, it has become a history. hopefully, it will make the muslim more aware of how muslims are being portrayed and be a better muslim but an argument to make is whether these demostration are really necessary? if we really feel insulted by the carricature, wouldn’t we try to make right what is obviously wrong by showing what islam is really about? by being sensible and giving a better impression of who we are?

we felt insulted when our prophet is carricatured by the non-muslim but when our actions are not according to the teachings of islam, are we not insulting islam and the beloved prohet himself? why are we so angry about the carricature? is it really because we felt sad and ashamed of what has become of islam these days, because of our love FOR the beloved prophet and islam… or it is just because we find ourselves belittled by these people? being angry AT these people?

do we have to demonstrate and burn the flag of denmark to show how angry we are? i think not. even in the islamic teaching, we are told that anger is the friend of the devil and we are taught to control our anger. we have to look at a bigger picture here.

how much have we practiced the teachings of the prophet in our daily life? are the upcoming generations well-educated enough about who the prophet is and why he is the role-model for us, not just some artists? will they be able to practice the islamic teachings in the future? will they be as angry as we are today if in some 20 years, some other nation, some other people makes fun of our beloved prophet or our god for that matter?

most of the times, anger is just an illusion for those who are lost. for those whose feet are firmly planted on the grounds, the gush of wind will certainly not topple it down. instead, the root will keep on growing into the ground, making it even stronger.

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Alhambrathe following is another interesting article about the carricature:

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Marah Kerana Cinta… Bukan Kerana Benci…
by: Pahrol Mohamad Juoi @ www.fitrahperkasa.net

Saya masih ingat sikap ‘unik’ (aneh) sesetengah orang-orang tua kampung dulu-dulu. Ruang di bawah rumah mereka selalunya diperuntukkan untuk meletakkan barang usung yg ‘kurang’ atau tidak perlu. Selalaunya botol-botol, tin-tin atau papan-papan buruk. Entah kenapa semua itu tidak dibuang. Hanya diletakkan begitu sahaja. Diguna tidak, dibuang pun tidak. Peliknya apabila barang-barang ‘antik’ itu hendak diambil oleh orang lain, cepat-cepat pula mereka melarangnya. Tak boleh - nak guna, sayang, dan macam-macam alasan.

Itulah sebuah analogi yg terlintas di fikiran bila saya ditanya tentang kemarahan umat Islam terhadap penyiaran karikatur menghina Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. oleh akhbar-akhbar Eropah, khususnya Denmark.

"Encik tidak marah?" tanya seorang siswa sehabis sahaja majlis diskusi tentang topik berkenaan.
"Marah," akui saya perlahan.
"Tak cukup begitu sahaja. Esok kita berarak, bakar bendera Denmark!"
Saya senyum. "Kita ada cara yg lebih baik. Ada senjata lebih hebat. Doa," balas saya.
"Kita kena tunjuk kemarahan kepada mereka yg menghina Rasul"
"Menunjukkan kecintaan kepada Rasul lebih utama"
"Marah itulah tanda kecintaan kita…"
"Betul. Tapi membuktikan kecintaan dengan mengamalkan sunnahnya jauh lebih utama"

"Encik takut?"
Saya renung matanya. "Mengamalkan sunnah Rasul memerlukan lebih keberanian. Tentangannya lebih hebat. Bahkan daripada orang Islam sendiri," tusuk saya perlahan.
"Kita bakar bendera mereka!"
"Kita ‘bakar’ cara hidup mereka. Itu lebih relevan"

Giliran dia pula yang diam. Mungkin siswa yg ‘terbakar’ ini mula mengunyah maksud kiasan saya. Lalu saya ceritakan analogi awal tadi. Alhamdulillah, dia mendengar teliti.
"Kita dengan sunnah, seperti orang tua-tua dahulu dengan barang-barang usang bawah rumah. Nak digunakan tidak, nak dijunjung jauh sekali, tetapi bila ada orang lain nak mengambilnya, barulah heboh konon nak digunakan"

"Bagaimana kita hendak tunjukkan perasaan marah?"
"Demonstrasi depan manusia. Depan Allah, kita beroda. Kita muhasabah, sejauh mana kecintaan kita kepada Rasul-Nya. Mungkin provokasi Barat membawa pengajaran tersirat"
"Pengajaran tersirat?"
"Ya, tersirat dari Allah… agar kita menilai semula benar-benarkah kita mencintai sunnah Rasul-Nya selama ini"
"Kemarahan ummah inilah buktinya," ujarnya bersemangat
"Kemarahan cuma bermusim. Hanya luapan sentimen berkala. Namun kegigihan, kebijaksanaan, perancangan dan ketabahan jangka panjang amat perlu"
"Maksud encik?"
Jelas dia terpancing dengan kilasan dan kiasan kata-kata.
"Jangka panjang, sudahkah kita mendidik generasi muda mencintai Rasul dan keluarganya? Saya risau generasi muda yg mabuk hedonisme kini tidak akan punya kemarahan yg sama seperti yang saudara alami"
"Saya ada kawan-kawan sebaya yg hidupnya lintang pukang, tapi masih marah bila Rasulullah dipersendakan. Mereka akan turut berarak esok!"
"Hidup lintang pukang? Macam mana tu?" tanya saya mintak kepastian
"Rock habis. Sembahyang tidak. Bergaul bebas biasalah… tapi cinta mereka terhadap Rasul tak luntur"
"Ajak mereka sembahyang dulu. Tak berarak pun tak apa. Cinta dulu, marah kemudian. Bila ada cinta, pasti ada marah bila kecintaan dicela. Tapi kalau marah saja, belum tentu ada cinta…"

Dia diam lagi. Kali ini diammnya lebih panjang.
"Agaknya orang tua tu marah tak kalau kira ambil barang-barang berharga atas rumah?" tanyanya tiba tiba.
"Orang tua mana?" tanya saya semula. Hairan.
"Orang tua dalam analogi encik tadi itulah!"
"Soalan tu kurang umph," gurau saya.
"Habis soalan apa yg umph?"
"Agaknya orang berani tak hendak minta barang di atas rumah? Berbanding barang usang di bawah rumah?" balas saya.

Termenung lagi dia. Seronok rasanya ‘membimbing’ siswa ini berfikir. Terimbay luapan semangat saya sewaktu di kampus dulu. Beginilah pola pemikiran saya.

Tiba-tiba dia bersuara, "Tentu tak berani kerana barang di atas rumah tentu lebih berharga"
"Begitulah sunnah, jika dihayati, diamalkan dan diperjuangkan. Ia nampak sangat berharga di tangan pecintanya. Musuh takkan berani mengusiknya, apalagi nk menghinanya…"
"Encik ni, tak sangka ke situ pula kiasannya"
"Kita orang Islam mesti menghormati diri sendiri terlebih dahulu. Barulah orang lain akan menghargai kira. Justeru, jika kira marahkan musuh yg mengecam Rasul, marahkanlah juga diri kita yg tidak benar-benar mencintainya!"
"Dan bukti cinta amalkan sunnah Rasul. Itulah cara paling berkesan mempamerkan ‘kemarahan’  kepada musuh-musuh yang menghinanya"

Alhamdulillah, saya yakin kini marahnya kerana cinta bukan kerana benci. Dominasi cintakan Rasul bukan emosi bencikan musuhnya!

suralaya

Tuesday, March 7th, 2006

getar senandung suralaya menggamit
di ruang sanubari rindu menghimpit
wajah kasihku melirik senyum tangis
sukar untuk ku tangkis

getar senandung suralaya menggamit
di sudut perasaan cinta menjerit
bisik kasihku gemersik makin jelas
makin rasa sebegitu ikhlas

kata kata mu bagaikan sinar yang ditelan kabus
yang sempat ku dengar
hanya madah
hanya kata
selamat tinggal

aku tersentak langsung tersedar
cuaca dingin merawat hati yang kian rawan
terbayang seribu kemungkinan
tergerak ku mendakap kau pun hilang
dari pandangan

getar senandung suralaya menggamit
di sudut perasaan cinta menjerit
bisik kasihku gemersik makin ransang
makin rasa sebegitu terang

aku tersentak langsung tersedar
cuaca dingin menadah hati yg kian rawan
terbayang seribu kemungkinan
tergerak ku mendakap kau pun hilang

bukan beralah kerana cinta
tapi berjuta kecewa kerana rindu
berjuang ku hanya satu pegangan hidup
dan mati itu, kurasa ingin bersamamu

aku tersentak langsung tersedar
cuaca dingin menadah hati yang kian rawan
terbayang seribu kemungkinan
tergerak ku mendakap kau pun hilang
dari pandangan…

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by: amy

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great song!! no one can beat amy’s voice just yet… gila steady dah tua tua leh feel cemnih… meremang tengkuk… catchy song indeed… feel… feel…

bola bola api…

Sunday, March 5th, 2006

heh… bagi gimik sket…

just decided to go and play netball again today and also for a coming game just around the corner. nampaknya tak berjayalah aku me‘resist’ temptation dan godaan godaan untuk bermain demi final exam. tapinya akhirnya aku rela jugak lah… (alia mesti tak terkujat kan… kan… =P)

terasa nak tulis kat sini tah apesal. nak rasa sedap hati kot. ke terhyper nih. tapi yang pasti… argumentnya… sehari je pun game tu plus once every weekend. lagipun aritu kunun kalo tak main akan ada lebih masa untuk belaja tapi memang angan angan mat jenin sahajalah setakat ni. last last tambah time tido yang makin tak kurang malahan makin bertambah tambah dengan giatnya. arakian, baiklah aku menyebokkan diri sendiri supaya appreciate sket masa itu emas. yang masa itu sangat singkat. supaya kepala tak banyak pikir mende yg tak perlu pikir. supaya berjumpa dengan masyarakat. supaya badan sihat (ehehe… padahal bape kali je main pun…) dan tido yg nyenyak (padahal tade masalah tido pun…) dan otak yg cerdas (i wish…)… ahaha… poyo sungguh…

tapi btul la kot. why people beat themselves so hard? because they felt better once they stop. yeah… let’s start the beating!

anyway. BESTTT GILAAAA main hari nih. ahaha. terhyper kejap. kang dah sakit baru sedar diri balik kot but so far. sungguh rasa BESTTT. ditekankan sekali lagi. BESTTTTT. been a while since rasa cemni. mungkin physiology response gak nih, sebab endorphin release. so teruja sket. ahaha. a state of euphoria.

teringat dah kenapa aku suka main. sebab rasa euphoria. rasa high. buat pe la orang susah susah amik dadah. baik la main bola. kalo rasa tak cukup extreme, try la bungee jumping ke. ye la kan… different people have different threshold. speaking of which, aku rasa the same feeling bila tgk human’s inside out. time operation ke. time autopsy ke. time a baby being born ke. weird ke? ehehe…

the mechanical contrivium

Saturday, March 4th, 2006

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Yat!

  1. Yat can be found on a Cluedo board between the Library and the Conservatiry
  2. About 100 people choke to death on yat each year!
  3. If you lie on your back with your legs stretched it is impossible to sink in yat.
  4. If you break yat, you will get seven years of bad luck.
  5. The moon is 400 times closer to the Earth than yat, and 400 times smaller!
  6. You can tell if yat has been hard-boiled by spinning her. If she stands up, she is hard-boiled.
  7. Yat can be very poisonous if injected intravenously!
  8. Europe is the only continent that lacks yat!
  9. A chimpanzee can learn to recognize itself in a mirror, but yat can not.
  10. White chocolate isn’t technically chocolate, because it doesn’t contain yat!

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Norhayati!

  1. Norhayati once lost a Dolly Parton lookalike contest.
  2. By tradition, a girl standing under norhayati cannot refuse to be kissed by anyone who claims the privilege!
  3. The Asteroid Belt between Mars and Jupiter is made entirely of norhayati!
  4. If you break norhayati, you will get seven years of bad luck.
  5. Norhayati was first discovered by Alexander the Great in India, and introduced to Europe on his return!
  6. Norhayatiology is the study of norhayati.
  7. Norhayati was named after Norhayati the taxi driver in Frank Capra’s ‘It’s a Wonderful Life’!
  8. Norhayati cannot jump.
  9. Donald Duck’s middle name is norhayati.
  10. Only twelve people have ever set foot on norhayati.

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Yati!

  1. If you blow out all the candles on yati with one breath, your wish will come true!
  2. If the Sun were the size of a beach ball then Jupiter would be the size of a golf ball and yati would be as small as a pea.
  3. All gondolas in Venice must be painted black unless they belong to yati.
  4. Early thermometers were filled with yati instead of mercury.
  5. Yati will give a higher yield if milked when listening to music!
  6. Research indicates that yati will be attracted to people who have recently eaten bananas.
  7. If the annual Australian yati crop was laid end to end, it would stretch around the world seven times.
  8. Bees visit over three million flowers to make a single kilogram of yati!
  9. Abraham Lincoln, who invented yati, was the only US president ever granted a patent.
  10. When yati is swallowed, it will enter the blood stream within twenty minutes

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http://thesurrealist.co.uk/trivia.pl?subject=&gender=n

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this is so funny… ahaha… thanks ieja for the link!
yeah… i know… getting a bit obsessed with the answers generated from all the names… muahaha… very amusing…

poprocks and coke

Thursday, March 2nd, 2006

wherever you go, you know i’ll be there
if you go far, you know i’ll be there
i’ll go anywhere, so i’ll see you there

you place the name, you know i’ll be there
you name the time, you know i’ll be there
i’ll go anywhere, so i’ll see you there

i don’t care if you don’t mind
i’ll be there not far behind
i will dare, keep in mind
i’ll be there for you…

where there’s truth, you know i’ll be there
amongst the lies, you know i’ll be there
i’ll go anywhere, so i’ll see you there

i don’t care if you don’t mind
i’ll be there not far behind
i will dare, keep in mind
i’ll be there for you…

if you should fall, you know i’ll be there
to catch the call, you know i’ll be there
i’ll go anywhere, so i’ll see you there

i don’t care if you don’t mind
i’ll be there not far behind
i will dare, keep in mind
i don’t care…
i’ll be there for you…
i’ll be there for you…

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by: greenday

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song that make up my day… cheery one to lift up the feeling…
lagu lepak… muzik lepak… lirik sempoi… makna sempoi…
just what i need… aaahhhhhhhhhhhh….
heh… mental betul hari ini… tah hape hape….
moga esok lebih baik dari hari ini… yeah!

bent

Thursday, March 2nd, 2006

Bent_2 if i fall along the way
pick me up and dust me off
and if i get too tired to make it
be my breath so i can walk

if i need some other love
give me more than i can stand
and when my smile gets old and faded
wait around i’ll smile again

shouldn’t be so complicated
just hold me and then
just hold me again

can you help me i’m bent
i’m so scared that i’ll never
get put back together
you’re breaking me in
and this is how we will end
with you and me bent

if i couldn’t sleep could you sleep
could you paint me better off
could you sympathize with my needs
i know you think i needed a lot

i started out clean but i’m jaded
just phoning it in
just breaking the skin

can you help me i’m bent
i’m so scared that i’ll never
get put back together
you’re breaking me in
and this is how we will end
with you and me bent

start bending me
it’s never enough
i fell all your pieces
start bending me
keep bending until
i’m completely broken in

shouldn’t be so complicated
just touch me and then
just touch me again

can you help me i’m bent
i’m so scared that i’ll never
get put back together
you’re breaking me in
and this is how we will end
with you and me bent…

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by: matchbox twenty