it’s already mid-day sunday?
gosh… how fast time flies? already mid-day sunday… there goes my weekend and maybe this afternoon or tonight, i’m heading back to the land of nothingness… hadoo… not exactly nothingness laa but yeah, pretty much nothing. no tv, limited internet access (can’t even get on yahoo or hotmail email account, what is that about?) and out of nowhere with ‘farmy’ smell (farmy smell equals to cows/horse shit smell-a-like… hehe)… ahaha… what can i expect? but i am still thankful. at least this time, tesco is nearby and the town & hospital is small but quite lovely. i’m sure a little bit of peace for a troubled mind wouldn’t hurt… =P
and so… typical life as a student these days. assignment & assessment to do. exam is near but not really on top of revision just yet. homescick and missing malaysian food. troubled at times. bored. money running down the drain. heh. pretty much everything.
but the heat is definitely on. just a few days back everything is more towards uncertainty but somehow, little by little things are getting more and more certain. i guess i’m in the "final year syndrome" - invented by a friend of mine. it is defined as a phase when you are sick of studying, tired of the exams and needed to earn so that you can live how you wanna live, but at the same time despise and horrified by the thought of having to work *God knows how many hours* with no holidays and a huge load of responsibilities on your shoulder… perfecto!!
anyway, at this point… i usually try to remind myself how fortunate i am and how far i’ve become… and what a cancer patient once told me always work as a charming mantra in time of despair, "life is all about choices. initially i thought i have no choice but yes i do. i can choose to despair or to cherish the life i still have" - something like that.
well… trying never hurt and the clock will never stop ticking will they?
heh… cubaan memotivasikanlah diri sendiri. can you tell? ahahaha
