OK, not that geeky at all, are you? I’ll bet you even have a girlfriend (or boyfriend).
The current average score is: 32.88%
Fact: 17.27% of people who took this test claim to have attempted to build a robot.
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ahahahaha… well, if you wanna try… go to http://www.matthewbarr.co.uk/geek/index.php
Please come now I think I’m falling
I’m holding to all I think is safe
It seems I found the road to nowhere
And I’m trying to escape
I yelled back when I heard thunder
But I’m down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say
Hold me now
I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain’t so far down
I’m looking down now that it’s over
Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in His grace
I cried out heaven save me
But I’m down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say
Hold me now
I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain’t so far down
Sad eyes follow me
But I still believe there’s something left for me
So please come stay with me
‘Cause I still believe there’s something left for you and me
For you and me
For you and me
Hold me now
I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking
By: Creed
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duhh… freaking out as you probably can tell… hmm… how can i get through this? it kinda make me think of doing something bizarre… of which i haven’t actually figure out exactly what… still thinking… still thinking… and just like the song, "hold me now… i’m six feet from the edge and i’m thinking…" (p/s: don’t worry, i’m not thinking about cutting my wrist or anything similar… heh)
maybe after exam… maybe after graduation… need to expand myself… need to grow this little brain…
it’s actually not true to say that i never wanted to study oversea… but yepp - specifically no… i never thought i would be able to anyway - you probably can tell how little my self esteem was and how i always underestimate myself… hehe… but then again, fate is with me and i’m here… i am most greatful!!… and for all that, somewehere in my memories i vaguely remembered the wishes i made when i was in primary school… "to be able to stand on my own two feet… to see if i can stand being on my own… to challenge myself in some way… to gain more confidence…" hmm… sure sounds freaky even to myself to think that i did actually think way too early - when i was so naive and innocent about life… anyway, i cannot remember the exact details but i know roughly that i wanted something that i don’t expect… a surprise to myself if i can do more than what i expected… probably that’s why i don’t usually make plans in my life… and God did i thought going to boarding school is the sign that my wish has been granted, only to discover later that my destiny lies further away than that…
and now facing my life, i do feel scared now and again… it’s good to have surprises but what if there are more tests to come in order to make me who i wished for? life is never straight forward… and come what may, i still need to get through every single thing that lies in front of me… scary but insyaAllah, endurable… just hoping that i didn’t fall head first from the edge…
and what a 77 years old man said to his children with teary eyes in the clinic just now echoed silently, "it’s just so hard and difficult you know… i am tired of struggling so hard… it’s not straight forward…"… and he is deciding whether or not to have an amputation above the right knee…
back to life… adios! and again, no worries… just need to express this the way i know how - write
it’s 11 am and i have to get ready by less than 45 mins to have lunchion with beloved housemates… hehe… kang mau kena jeling laks lambats… ahaha… and alia surely pelik ngan kefanatan aku menaip… =P
anyway, tetibe tadi cam encounter gamba orang pakai inai… aiyoooo… been ages since my last time pakai inai… hmm… rilek… rilek… bukan pakai nk kawen ke ape… it’s a hobby lah… something me and my sister do when we have spare time untuk menyeksa diri… (ye laa… traditionally you have to wait for ages so that it’s really red… hehe)… especially when balik kampung… hmm… but now eh, if suddenly pakai inai… hmm… sure the million dollar question will come up kan? ahaha… tak pun people will give that ‘understanding’ look…
anyway, jotting this down so that i rembember that’s one of the thing i might do when i’m back in malaysia… weeeheeeeeeeee…
hehe… to not found something funny… to not laugh… to not have a break… to be pissed off over little things… so, here i am and writing up a few latest definition that i got from the internet… sure is funny… keh keh… enjoy!!
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atom bomb: an invention to kill all inventions
boss: someone who is late when you are early and early when you are late
criminal: a guy no different from the rest, only that he got caught
conference room: a place where everybody talks, nobody listens and everybody disagrees later on
cigarette: a pinch of tobacco rolled in a piece of paper, with fire at one end and a fool at another (muahaha… any brighter suggestion?)
diplomat: a person who actually tells you to go to hell in such a way that you actually look forward for it
doctor: a person who kills your ills by pills and kills you by his bills (haha!!)
experience: the name men give to their mistakes (*wink wink*)
etc: the sign to make others believe that you know more than you do
father: a banker provided by nature
lecture: an art of transfering information from the notes of the lecturers to the notes of the students without passing the minds of either
politician: a person who shakes your hand before election and your confidence after
philospher: a fool who torment himself during life, to be spoken off when dead
smile: a curve that can set a lot of things straight (sweet eh?)
tears: the hydraulic force by which masculine will power is defeated by feminine water power (way cool… haha)
I wrote your name on sand it got washed.
I wrote your name in air, it was blown away.
Then I wrote your name on my heart & I got heart attack.
God saw me hungry, he created pizza.
He saw me thirsty, he created Pepsi.
He saw me in dark, he created light.
He saw me without problems, he created YOU.
Twinkle little star
You should know what you are
And once you know what you are
Mental hospital is not so far.
The rain makes all things beautiful. The grass and flowers too.
If rain makes all things beautiful why doesn’t it rain on you?
Roses are red, violets are blue
monkeys like u should be kept in the zoo.
Don’t feel so angry you will find me there too
not in the cage but laughing at you.
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got this from the many chain emails… wanna share the joke… enjoy!!! muahahaha… evil laughter… =P
hehe… a little wonders of the brain
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this entry is especially to mak, the person who actually bring me into this world… no thanks is enough for all that you’ve done… "SELAMAT HARI LAHIR ke-58 Mak"… semoga kebahagiaan milikmu senantiasa dunia dan akhirat…
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kadang antara kita tiada bicara
kadang hanya senyum mengiringi sua
tapi hatimu hatiku ada simpulnya
tak bisa terungkai demi masa
dari mata kulihat kasihnya
jayaku dengan iringan doanya
moga harapanmu tertunai jua
dunia akhirat bahagia selamanya
salam anakmu dari perantauan cuma
tak bisa kan dapat membalas segala
budi jasamu selama usia
kan di ingatan di hati sentiasa
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"Ya Allah, lindungi ibuku dan sejahterakan dia selalu bersama orang orang yang beriman" Amin
hmm… still remember my last entry about having butterfly in stomach starting the orthopod placement?? well, guess what… the butterfly died… why?? am i NOT afraid of orthopods? did they suddenly appear very warm and friendly?… oh nooo… not at all… it’s just because they don’t give a shit…
i am very disappointed laaaa… on monday i stayed for about 2 hours in a spinal clinic and that’s it for the whole week… the consultant i’m attched to give no toss what-so-ever about students… resulting me observing all the x-rays and mri scans with blank expression in the 2 hours clinic and no other timetabled sessions… ok laa… to be fair the registrar is nice and she did show me how examination of the back is done… but why la the consultant cannot even give a 2 minutes brief on what’s gonna happen in this week?? is it too much to ask 
for?? at least tell me where i can possibily get the lists if he is too lazy or probably ‘busy’ to plan a timetable… am i supposed to just turn up whenever i want to??? but the other thing is… where???
arghhhhh… menyampah la aku kan… i can study for other things than to struggle and find the theatre list (mind you, just to see hip and knee replacement) as well as the list for clinics… pemalas betul!!! but lantak lah… derang pun malas… like they are going to notice me anyway… yepp… i am having a crappy placement for orthopods… and with exams creeping in memang la tak kuasa aku nak struggle, lelagi just to make myself noticeable…
but then again… i want to learn!!! i want teachings!!! my government don’t pay this university so much for me to run around finding the lists laaaaa!!!… budusssss incompetent people… dah la nak periksa nih… huhu
so, penny for a thought… i still have another week next week to go to clinics and theatre if i want to… but should i bother?? should i?? really… should i?? or should i just read what i can and study and make the best of the time i have… to be honest, i am more tempted with the second option but would i be at a lost?? can anyone answer this??…
*sigh* well… it’s already friday… so, for the time being i am not gonna bother… see if i am feeling extra super saiya next week, then probably i’ll go and try make more effort… if not… there goes my orthopaedic placement… huhu
another head hangs lowly, child is slowly taken
and the violence caused such silence, we must be mistaken
but you see it’s not me it’s not my family
in your head, in your head they are fighting
with their tanks and their guns and their bombs and their guns
in your head, in your head they are crying
in your head, in your head, zombie, zombie, zombie…
what’s in your head, in your head, zombie, zombie, zombie…
another mother’s breakin, heart is taking over
when the violence causes silence, we must be mistaken
it’s the same old theme, since 1916
in your head, in your head, they’re still fighting…
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by: cranberries
weeheeee… had a glance of my recent entries and wallahhh… banyak pula rentetan jiwa jiwa… ahahaha… must be one of those days… =P… sentimentot mode… today is very warm indeed… no need for jacket and i think my sweat glands started working again… hehe… good as induction session before returning back to malaysia (insyaAllah)… a nurse in A&E said to me that it’s 29 degree celcius and the hospital somehow still have the heating system on… crazy!! it can never be warm enough in winter and they can’t seem to switch it off in the summer… what laaa??
oh yes, i am in the A&E department today… on a sunday… pathetic? or maybe i am a bit keen… but more likely so, i am just being a nerd and sticking to my timetable for the time being… hehe… at least if i have done two session of A&E i don’t feel as guilty skipping the last two near the exams… we’ll see how it goes…
hmm… referring to my previous entry about how medical students are not very much welcomed in A&E… well, i have to take back what i said… it is still true that you need to be visible enough and not-be-in-the-way kind of thing… but the last two sessions i had in A&E have been a good and worthwhile experience, especially in term of reception that i got… in both occasions i have highly enthusiastic and super duper friendly *wink wink* SHO to tag me along and teach me what they can… with cheerful and helpful nurses and registrars… and i AM ever so greatful!!!… to think of it… hmm… it is a bit scary cause i am actually thinking of going to all my sessions for A&E which is only on weekends… ahaha… gila!! prioritise pleaseeeee!!! so many things to revise but ada hati nak lepak A&E… keh keh keh…
by the way, i managed to stick a needle and draw blood from a ‘big boy’ today… and i said ‘big boy’ because he actually winges about me taking blood… hehe… kejam la pulak.. but i can understand why he freaks out a bit… i have to use 20ml syringe to get quite some blood for all the tests he needed… hihi… BIG BIG syringe yeaaaaaaa!!! no laaa… i am not so cruel… i did try and do it emphatically, kindly and with care, just like how i was thought to do in medical school… plus i don’t think i make him bruise… hehe… but maybe it’s too early to say…
well… enough said already… should go to bed now to prepare myself mentally and physically so that i can endure the orthopods tomorrow… ughhh… butterfly in my stomach!!!… starting orthopaedic placement and the instruction was, "…to be in front of the AO Lab in Chancellor Wing, SJUH just before eight…" hmm… i guess i have to take the early morning bus there…
a long week ahead… and home alone too… uhuk uhuk… tak berasap lah dapur minggu ini… hehe… anybody wants to cook for me this week??
